Stash: My Life In Hiding

A propulsive and vivid memoir — in the vein of Drinking: A Love Story and Somebody’s Daughter — about the journey to sobriety and self-love amidst addiction, privilege, racism, and self-sabotage from the host of the popular podcast The Only One in the Room. 

After years of hiding her addiction from everyone — from stockpiling pills in her Louboutins to elaborately scheduling withdrawals between PTA meetings, baby showers, and tennis matches — Laura Cathcart Robbins settles into a complicated purgatory. She learns the hard way that privilege doesn’t protect you from pain. Facing divorce, the possibility of a gruelling custody battle, and internalized racism, Robbins wonders just how much more she can take. 

Now, with courage and candid openness, she reveals how she managed to begin the long journey towards sobriety and unexpectedly finding new love. Robbins harrowingly illustrates taking down the wall she built around herself brick by brick and what it means to be Black in a startingly white world. 

"Sometimes, Robbins hits just the right note... However, the back and forth of repeated scamming attempts, rationalizations, cold sweats, evasions, therapy sessions in rehab, and negotiations over an eventual divorce takes on a certain numbing sameness after a while... Breaks little new ground, but a solid cautionary tale about the dangers of drug addiction and the struggle to overcome it."  -  Kirkus Reviews

With its raw, finely crafted, and engaging prose, Stash is the story of just how badly the facade she created had to shatter before Laura could reconnect to her true self.